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Here I am, this is me
Mar. 24th, 2022 05:11 amHello, everyone. Welcome to this little page. I'm mostly going to stay in my lane, squeeing and crying over fictional people kissing. I don't have much to share anyway. My life is boring. Maybe I am boring. However, introducing ourselves is always good exercise for the mind, right? Also, if someone ever opens this page, it would be sad if they found nothing.
Call me psy, luna, or psyluna as you please. My IRL name is boring and doesn't fit me. I don't care much about this pronouns thing, but she/her will do.
I was born in 1995. Feel free to do the math. I'm not old old, but old enough to remember a bit of Ye Olde Days of fandom. As an unsupervised child on the internet, I date back to the era when smut was called "lemons", even if I had absolutely NO business knowing that at the time.
The written word has always fascinated me. I could read from a very early age and that was my favorite thing to pass the time. I can't put my finger on what exactly was my first piece of fiction in general. My first fanfiction was a poorly written NejiTen I wrote on Notepad and posted on FFN without a care in the world. It was hideous. I was 10, I think. I even got a positive comment! Different times, huh?
No regrets, though.
I don't know what it is about me that I seem to be physically unable to write fluffy, conflict-free, painless stories. It's been like that since I can remember. Even the sweetest things that ever came out of this brain of mine have some degree of dramatic content. Breakup, internal turmoil, deep existential questions, loneliness, doubt, fear, despair, abandonment, uncertainty. All of that together, and even more. The darkest parts of the human emotional experience seem to catch my eye more often than they should. I swear I'm not trying to be deep. I wish I was sunnier. I wish I didn't make myself suffer. Perhaps that's why I like the theme of "something good and hopeful that was born from chaos", like most of my pairings begin.
I'd rather write than talk. Talking is painful and tiring. People are hard. Even if there are real people on the other side reading my unspeakable thoughts, for a moment, I can believe they are words on a screen and nothing more, and they can do the same in return. There is a sense of detachment to putting words out in the world, and to receiving words back, especially in a language that's not my native one to begin with.
Speaking of which, English is not my first language. I can use it just fine for everyday communication, as you can tell from this post. I have a trace of a British accent that contaminated me long ago. It's not on purpose. Only God can judge me.
Do I like English? Well, it's complicated. I like the opportunities. The vast knowledge. Some quirky word or idiom I pick up at times. The language? Grammar? The dull verb tenses? Some stupid names for things? No way. Portuguese is my mother tongue, and one I hold close to my heart. There is no language to be informal like Portuguese. No one does talking about our feelings like we do. Ignoring personal pronouns in sentences due to the multiple verb tenses is just amazing. The swear words? Slang words? Chef's kiss. I love languages and language learning in general, but facts are facts.
Let's not talk about my broken Japanese skills, please. lol
If you have anything to say to me, to ask/tell me about myself, my fics, life in general, trivia, your favorite things, ships/fandoms we have in common, or if you just want an inbox to scream into, hit me up. I can't promise an in-depth, heartfelt, and/or quick response, though. These years, I acquired the habit of not taking things too seriously so that I wouldn't freak out over stuff. I'm a natural problem-solver with clown tendencies and a fangirl at heart. If you are fine with that, let's chat.
If I ever post anything here again, see you next time. In case I don't, I'm not dead or anything, just quietly enjoying fictional content.
Call me psy, luna, or psyluna as you please. My IRL name is boring and doesn't fit me. I don't care much about this pronouns thing, but she/her will do.
I was born in 1995. Feel free to do the math. I'm not old old, but old enough to remember a bit of Ye Olde Days of fandom. As an unsupervised child on the internet, I date back to the era when smut was called "lemons", even if I had absolutely NO business knowing that at the time.
The written word has always fascinated me. I could read from a very early age and that was my favorite thing to pass the time. I can't put my finger on what exactly was my first piece of fiction in general. My first fanfiction was a poorly written NejiTen I wrote on Notepad and posted on FFN without a care in the world. It was hideous. I was 10, I think. I even got a positive comment! Different times, huh?
No regrets, though.
I don't know what it is about me that I seem to be physically unable to write fluffy, conflict-free, painless stories. It's been like that since I can remember. Even the sweetest things that ever came out of this brain of mine have some degree of dramatic content. Breakup, internal turmoil, deep existential questions, loneliness, doubt, fear, despair, abandonment, uncertainty. All of that together, and even more. The darkest parts of the human emotional experience seem to catch my eye more often than they should. I swear I'm not trying to be deep. I wish I was sunnier. I wish I didn't make myself suffer. Perhaps that's why I like the theme of "something good and hopeful that was born from chaos", like most of my pairings begin.
I'd rather write than talk. Talking is painful and tiring. People are hard. Even if there are real people on the other side reading my unspeakable thoughts, for a moment, I can believe they are words on a screen and nothing more, and they can do the same in return. There is a sense of detachment to putting words out in the world, and to receiving words back, especially in a language that's not my native one to begin with.
Speaking of which, English is not my first language. I can use it just fine for everyday communication, as you can tell from this post. I have a trace of a British accent that contaminated me long ago. It's not on purpose. Only God can judge me.
Do I like English? Well, it's complicated. I like the opportunities. The vast knowledge. Some quirky word or idiom I pick up at times. The language? Grammar? The dull verb tenses? Some stupid names for things? No way. Portuguese is my mother tongue, and one I hold close to my heart. There is no language to be informal like Portuguese. No one does talking about our feelings like we do. Ignoring personal pronouns in sentences due to the multiple verb tenses is just amazing. The swear words? Slang words? Chef's kiss. I love languages and language learning in general, but facts are facts.
Let's not talk about my broken Japanese skills, please. lol
If you have anything to say to me, to ask/tell me about myself, my fics, life in general, trivia, your favorite things, ships/fandoms we have in common, or if you just want an inbox to scream into, hit me up. I can't promise an in-depth, heartfelt, and/or quick response, though. These years, I acquired the habit of not taking things too seriously so that I wouldn't freak out over stuff. I'm a natural problem-solver with clown tendencies and a fangirl at heart. If you are fine with that, let's chat.
If I ever post anything here again, see you next time. In case I don't, I'm not dead or anything, just quietly enjoying fictional content.
psyluna
